When asked to participate in a chapter of Forbes Riley‘s book “What have you Forbes’d lately?” My inner voice immediately and without hesitation snapped “NO”
I knew what that meant, that I was happier standing in the shadows applauding others. But I am on to me..and so was Forbes. When she asked if I was in I smiled and squeaked out a weak half hearted, Surrrre!
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By the end of 2017, I was emotionally stuck. I got to the end of a long road of denial. And as I predicted - a dead end. I felt trapped. I thought I would try writing. It was usually my oasis but my hidden treasure was rusty and buried for a long time.
Agreeing to the task, my brain felt sluggish like molasses, the words would not flow. I questioned my ability to get my thoughts on paper. The writing was my safe haven, my joy - my place of trust. But I had become fearful to confront the person responsible for my pain - ME.
As I wrote I secretly hoped no one would read about my journey into self-examination and my healing process. It was this very chapter that freed my mind from the fear that imprisoned me.
Fear is like quicksand. The more you fight it the further you sink into apathy and isolation. I was suffocating and I decided that it was finally time to start breathing again.